Emotional Days and Grateful Times

I have a few things to catch up on, but there is one big change that I have made. It was terrifying and I had the hardest time actually admitting that I needed to make a change. So, as many of you know, I am majoring in legal studies at UVU. I am currently in the middle of my first semester of my program. I went into this semester so excited to start out the end of my schooling. I was finally here, ready to go four more semesters and finally get to work in the law community. Well, the first couple weeks, were great, but I slowly started loosing my love for it...before I knew it, I realized how unhappy I was with the program and what I was going to be doing for the rest of my life. Well, I got an email from Disney about the Alumni Disney College Program and even though I can't attend because of work, I was looking through their other internships and the hospitality ones kept sticking out at me. I ignored it because it had nothing to do with my current major. But, it struck my curiosity and started doing research on hospitality management... and I was hooked. I couldn't stop. After more research, prayer, and fasting, I realized that that was where I needed to be. I'm in the process right now of switching my major to hospitality management. I realized that the hardest thing for me was that it was never in my plan. I never thought that I wanted to do hospitality managment. It was always either law or culinary, so that fact was scary. I talked to my mom long and hard about the fact and she told me that she could even tell I hadn't been happy with my program and the classes. That alone was a big step for me. So, I am almost officially a hospitality major. I am so excited and can't wait for the new adventure with what is hopefully my for sure career trail. It holds so much potential! Anyway, on another note. I had a surprise visitor yesterday. I was driving home from yoga yesterday morning when my mom called me. We talked the whole 25 minute drive and also while I was folding some laundry. There was a knock on my front door and I answered it to find my mom standing there. Best. Surprise. Ever. We went to lunch and did some shopping. It was the best way to spend the day before I had to go to work. Unfortunately, she was only here for the day and had to go home...and her car broke down on the way home. She must love me though, because she said that even if she knew that her car was going to break down she still would have come. I don't know if you realize this, but I have the best mother ever. She knew I needed her so she came to me

Welcome Home to Me!

So...I'm home for the weekend! Yay!! It's so good to be home. I'm at this moment lying in my bed writing this post! I can't help myself! Today has been kind of crazy. I've had this trip planned since before I moved, so today when my uncle called saying that the weather was bad and that I shouldn't drive in it, I was devastated. Literally crying. I still had to work until 3 so he told me to call him when I got off and he'd check the roads again for me. I said the biggest prayer hoping that I would be able to make the drive... PRAYER ANSWERED! There was snow and slush part of the way, but mostly blue skies and sunshine! Home. I love home. I appreciate it so much more than I ever have in my life. I also appreciate my second home. Provo. I love it. Everything fell into place so fast that I could not be any happier...well, I mean, if a man entered my life, that would have the potential to make me happier...but, let's not dwell on that ;) Coming home also brings back the past. But not in a bad way. Things were hard for a long time, and I didn't really understand what I wanted. I still don't to be honest. Part of me wants to settle everything. There is so much unfinished business in my life. I wonder if it is supposed to be that way, or if I should make an effort. I'm afraid to ask and see what my answer will be. I try not to dwell on the past. There is so much in my present and future now that I can actually see, that I just want to live life at its fullest, and I'm slowly learning to do that. Azzie's wedding is approaching quickly. One month from today actually! I'm so excited for her, and have had such a great time with all of it. I feel so honored to be her MOH. We become such close friends so fast that I can't even remember a time when our friendship was awkward. I am so excited to spend some time with my family! The move was easier than I'd anticipated, but leaving my mom, dad, dog, and sisters was so hard. I don't know how I'm going to leave Monday morning. Probably through tears. Anyway, I just have so much to be grateful for that I never know where to begin. There is so much to figure out about life, but I fell like I am finally on a path to the solutions. Here's to a great weekend!