Do you ever have those days?
Yeah, you know what I mean. Don't deny it.
Well, I had all those feelings, emotions, and stupid people in an hour.
Yeah, an hour.
Where do I even start?
Do you even care?
Well, you're here reading this so you get to hear about it!
So, this morning started out pretty great. I didn't have to work until 5 so I had the WHOLE day to just be lazy and productive. My two favorite things.
So, I watched a couple episodes of Once Upon a Time.
Did a math assignment.
Did a housekeeping management assignment.
Went for a run.
Did some more homework.
Watched some more Once.
Eventually, I showered and got ready for work. I was feeling pretty good about my day.
I didn't feel so great going to work, but I figured it was just hunger, exhaustion, and probably me denying the fact that I didn't want to go to work.
Tuesday night is my night to manage so I was happy when I saw that I had a pretty good group going for the night.
But, I didn't get the memo.
What memo?
Oh, the let's be stupid memo.
Seriously. Being an employee at Pizza Factory is NOT hard. It's just not. But sometimes the people I work with act like it's rocket science.
It's not.
And don't even get me started on the stupid customers who think they can get a deliver and NOT PAY FOR THEIR FOOD. Yeah, that happened.
Why did it happen? Because the delivery driver got lost and had to call and get better directions.
Seriously? Do they not realize that's S.T.E.A.L.I.N.G.????
I mean, really? And then to yell at me about it? You just got $30 worth of free pizza you jerk!
So, I finally get closed and head home. On my way home the waterworks start.
I cry.
A lot.
Like more than the average female.
I think it has been coming for a while.
That, and like I said, I cry a lot.
I'm so overwhelmed right now that I think it all just got caught in this wall I put up.
Well Kav, the dam broke and boy, did it flood.
School started last week and I forgot how time consuming it is.
I realized how much I don't have friends here. I mean, I have Carissa. She's my best friend. But, she's also married and her husband is always there. I get that, sometimes I just need a friend I can talk to without her husband piping in. I need single friends. Heck, I need a boyfriend!
Driving home tonight, I realized I just want someone to talk to that isn't my mom. My mom is always there and she is seriously my best friend right now. But, I need more. I need to be outgoing and make friends.
I need to prioritize my life for school, work, friends, ironman training, etc. It's all so time consuming and I feel like I can't figure out how to juggle it anymore even though I've been doing it for years.
Something is going to give soon if I don't figure something out.
I don't know what it is...
Maybe a friend will come along.
Maybe the days will magically get longer.
Maybe I can just give up.
All I can do now is keep up the hard work and remember to pray. It's all I have going for me right now. It just has to be enough until I can get through this.
Life can be so rough. But it can also be SO good.
Let's just hope a good patch it coming.
I could use it.
Sorry for the venting. This is my only place to do so.
Until my next breakdown :)
